My mind won't let me rest
so here I lie awake,
second guessing every thought that I had that day.
Tell myself i'll change tomorrow
sleep it off - I can't fill what is hollow.
Stuck in a vicious fucking cycle that I can't escape.
Sadness, but the tears won't flow.
Anger that I can't let go.
Hide it, the smiling hurts my cheeks,
running from all that makes me feel.
The sleep diminishes, the worries keep piling up.
If I keep suppressing emotion, i'm afraid I will erupt.
But I choke on the words, and leave stress on my mind.
Searching for a mental peace that i'll never find.
Don't ask me how I feel today,
all I see is black and gray
My head's in fog
my hearts a pit,
my soul's been dragged through dirt and shit.
released March 14, 2014
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